Saturday, June 27, 2009
Okay Last Night I had the most horrible dream or should I say nightmare... I dreamt that my mom died... in my dream there was only me, my mom and my dad!! my mom passed away and my dad was upset and then he left me alone... i was in my house by myself... i was sad and scared cuz it felt like my dad abandoned me after my mom passed away... i started to run around the house crying and screaming for my mom... i kept saying "Please come back mom" "where are u mom"... i just kept crying and crying and then i woke up so scared and sad... then i went out into the living room to check on my mom!! She was sleeping... but i was still so sad cause my mom is still sick and she like pratically on her death bed... everytime i see her i just want to break down crying so bad but i can't!!.. well before i had that nightmare last night, yesterday my dad told me that there nothing anyone can do for my mom and she could pass away anytime in her sleep... after hearing that i was sad and heartbroken!! I dont want to leave my mothe alone!! i dont even want to go to work anymore!! i'm scared something might happen to my mom when i'm away!! I don't even go out anymore... the only time i go out is to the gym and when i go to the gym i think alot when i'm there!! All i want now is for my whole family to come together so we can take family pictures!! I also want to do a family reunion for my mom!! all i pray and hope for is that God will give us a maricle and let my mom get better!!!
5:36 PM
Friday, June 12, 2009
Okay i havent blogged in a while!!! i'm bored so i guess i should write something... okay its soo hot right now... its like summer and my mom turned on the heater... i'm dying here!!! and just to let u know my mom is sick so her body is different from ours!! gosh the heat is killing me tho!!! i have my window open but the heat is hitting right where i sleep!! man this sucks!! ohh yess my dad just turned off the heater right now~~ finally i can breath!! lol!! well i have nothing else to write!! bye!!
1:40 AM
